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Sat, Mar. 15th, 2008, 08:30 pm

soft, when the forces are harsh
qiet, when the noise is overwhelming
love, when the fear surfaces
peace, when anger is alive
forgiveness, when the burden is great
pace, when the mind is hurried
thought, when motives are unknown
honor, when the ugliness awakens
flow, when the banks are crashing
purity, when actions lead astray
Glow, when the darkness envelopes
Hope, when the will is broken

Mon, Dec. 3rd, 2007, 01:18 pm
3 dimensional Identity Matrix



Matrix [A] is undefined. It extends infinitely in all directions.

The matrix [A] has an inverse that is a reflection of matrix [A].

Essentially: [A] = [A]-¹

Imagine sensory perception, or "bottom-up" processing from the perspective of it's entire journey from the source of electromagnetic wave-format signals transduced to chemical gradient influenced, biochemical signals that are encoding and decoding as you are reading this.

That is, you eyes are focusing on the computer screen right now to read these letters, and while doing so your eyes are adjusting the focus of light into specific points through parabolic reflection. There is an equation for a line in this. If that equation were to be y² + x = 4py and/or x² + y = 4py (of course, this is only fictitious as this only represents a 2-dimensional parabola with directrix on either x and/or y).

On the coefficient matrix the line y² + x = 4py would be represented using the coefficients of y, x, and 4py.

For the values 3y² + 2x = 8

Matrix [A] = [3 2 8]

This is an organized table of abstract information, representing a [i]fictitious[/i] value for the focus of light indecent upon sensory receptors in the back of the retina at a given frequency, which is transcribed through "bottom-up processing."

If equation, 3y² + 2x = 8, which is a line, is an actual value for the frequency of light corresponding directly with the actual value of sensory transduction and encryption, then the line 3y² + 2x = 8 has an inverse which is equal to the specific sequence of the sensory encryption.

[A] = [A]-¹

To find the inverse [A]-¹ of [A] = [3 2 8]

And given other sensory input from the five senses, with given values all corresponding with associative electromagnetic frequencies and/or chemical gradient biochemical interactions i.e.

[3 2 8] <-- line representing vision
[1 9 5] <-- line representing sound
[7 6 4] <-- line representing touch

Then: Matrix [A] with the "tabula rasa" for finding [A]-¹ follows as:

[3 2 8]....[1 0 0]
[1 9 5] = [0 1 0]
[7 6 4]....[0 0 1]

Which is states that Matrix [A] = Identity Matrix

The Identity Matrix is the "blank slate" involved in the two dimensional ebb and flow of sensory transduction, encoding and decoding. This corresponds to the nervous system, or the logic used in computer systems.

For everything that "happens" to matrix [A] the identity matrix will change accordingly. The identity matrix will show the inverse of the original matrix [A]. However, the identity matrix is of the same value but different coefficients for given variables. One may say, different "perceptions."

Because [A] is specific to a fixed perspective, however, matrix [A] will variety according to all subsets of matrix [A].

Thu, Oct. 25th, 2007, 12:09 am

I am a disease. i will infect you. i want to control you, and penetrate you. I am not trent reznor, this is truth. fuck you for your judgement, and your strife that you compare to mine. if I could i'd crawl inside you false personality and take it to hell with me. If I see you, know that.. I have no desire but to see you in the same fucking rot that I embrace in daily existence. I have no compassion anymore. YOU STOLE IT YOU FUCK. You fucking. You fucking lie. Fuck you.

Wed, Oct. 24th, 2007, 12:04 am

... At times, could swear corpus collosum is cracking. Can almost hear the sound. Descending into depths of Lethe. Forgetting. Wasting. And the defecation in corner is piling up. Unhindered impulses. Sin cycles. Severed therein. No plane or common ground. Hell. Nightmare realm sleep swallows weak in death. Noise, pain, punishment, bereft without light. Cold, like prison. No release.

Thu, Nov. 23rd, 2006, 01:32 am
To Woodstock who wished me a happy thank a day

"Happy rape the mother fuck'n natives of the land and eat a lot in order to defecate in and pollute the sacred waters of their living ancestors day to you too sir! Hope you have family."

It's a tradition.

Fri, May. 19th, 2006, 10:34 pm

well it's offical, I aced both classes. Whoo, like butta.

Sat, Feb. 18th, 2006, 11:22 am

such a sweet sound echoing
like a ringing in a cave
buzzing in my head
letting me escape
keeping me in the moment
not concerned here or there
what’s in the future or past
where the ocean meets the air
there is a thin strip of horizon
blurred between infinite ends
bending and changing shape
not knowing how or when
bringing the source to midline
echoing in my spine
breathe in and out
feel the loss of time

Sun, Feb. 5th, 2006, 12:47 pm
Marduk totally rules

"Marduk desires not the barren wasteland of your desiccated viscera." -Sparks sealab 2021

Fri, Nov. 4th, 2005, 05:45 am

It was a wierd night, I just got home.

I found a guy to hang out with, his name is John... we walked to Lyons, and then I walked him to the lightrail. It was amusing times and I enjoyed the walk.

I had a math exam today, I think I got a B. I had a presentation too, and although I got an A, I had trouble speaking as always. I have problems speaking in front of a group. I don't know why, eh...

My manager from my old work called me out of the blue this morning because she was "thinking about me." I thought that was strange because we were really never on that good of terms I think, but who knows. She was nice to me after I wrote to the main office about her behavior. I wonder if she really just wanted me back?

No thanks. :/

Thu, Nov. 3rd, 2005, 10:12 am

My Bis 85 teacher is kinda "flowery" as I've heard it put. I'm used to that though because of some of my massage teachers. She forwards us e-mails like:

"Here, I brought you some heart soup. It's pretend soup, but it will give
you REAL LOVE, because everyone needs love and I just wanted to make sure you were getting enough"... David, age 5

So I sent her one back:

"happy sunshine sparkles of everlasting joy wrapped up in a ball of loving
gladness that permeates an all encompassing void of bliss filled
rainbows"... some guy on acid.

and she replied:

"thanks :)"

Heh, I like her.

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